to come and update this blog ……. So deeply sorry, it will not do.
I must amend the writing routine ( yet again )
Och well winter is moving in over the hills , chiselling a path through the mountains ..shimmering icily over the water and clouding over the sky in its various hues of various grey .
I try not to dread this time and have intentions of buying a special light alarm for S.A.D. so that is on my wish list .
But I wanted to say that the above Humming Bird Heart , has sold , which was a great boost for me, ( a huge boost in fact ) the only down side being I dont know anything about who bought the picture ..and I would love to know..
I have problems saying I am an artist, because I dont consider myself to be one, its far to important a title in my perception , more than just a title its a calling and conjures up images of the greats who were also visionary and highly skilled in all aspects of the realms of Art, in short I was encouraged while I was growing up to think of the word Artist, equating with Genius.
That is a lot to live up to, and its far easier to self defeat and fail, before even trying, when you are asked to be perfect and impossibly brilliant in the budding stages of drawing and painting.. That silent yet permeable pressure of expectation from the adult world , that is first to criticise, before there is even a hint of praise..
I know it is different now , very different .
So how do I overcome that feeling I have, where I sabotage what ability I do have before I have even fully explored it , especially by telling myself it is too late to learn, I am self taught not trained and so on and on ..
But I sold something, I have had lots of positive feed back from a recent exhibition I had some pieces in, have another one booked to send to the USA and I know that with work and practise as with all things, I will get better.
I have just discovered in the last few weeks this Artist /writer / illustrator Jackie Morris please check out her beautiful works , books for children and more . I am particularly fond of the Tigers and Wolves ..One day, very soon , I hope to piece together my words and images and create something beautiful for a reader to get lost within.
~To the girls who bullied me in secondary school, most especially in Art class, my haven , or so I thought ………….
There are some things that people do to you , that you do not comprehend and you know at the time it happens, it is so filled with pain you are numbed by it, disconnected in body and soul . But later you understand why it was so painful and you know, in so many ways you know the self , and in the knowing you discover you have the soul of the warrior.
Thank you for reading and for visiting this blog ..there will be more I promise ..I am in the cave now collecting the colours …………….